About 3 hours after arriving at work two weeks ago I needed to go home. I could no longer continue. Physically and emotionally drained`. I saw the GP the next day, who signed me off work for 2 weeks. As well as having prescribed anti depressants the GP has referred me to counselling, the appointment is not until 20 August. I’m due back in work on Wednesday 31 July and am dreading it. I haven’t been able to function for a long time and despite hoping that some time off would help recharge my batteries I feel worse. When my husband was diagnosed I reduced work from 5 to 4 days per week and last year managed to gain approval to work from home 1 day per week. It is just me and him. Apart from me meeting with an Alzheimer’s support worker on a regular basis, there is no-one else. The thought of having someone from SS into our private environment while I’m not at home is just an intolerable thought. It is our private space, our lives that will be invaded, apart from that it is also a tip! I’ve not been able to keep it maintained for a long time. I do realise to some extent I will probably have to change my mindset. I guess I am asking for permission to have some time out to give myself some space to get used to the idea of allowing outsiders into our lives. Perhaps with the help of counselling I can reach the stage that I can agree to having ‘support’ starting with arrangements while I’m there as well. I also need time to think about the state of the house and make arrangements for repairs. We, my husband and I, also need some time to relax. The routine has been work 4 days with a two hour daily commute, 3 days of trying to keep up with basic housekeeping, shopping, dealing with the household admin, maintaining the car and looking after his needs. I believe I have been experiencing anxiety attacks. These subsided somewhat but are recurring at the thought of returning to the situation I found myself in two weeks ago, but equally also at the thought of not returning to work and asking the GP to extend my period of absence. I fear losing my job and our home as well. How to find some guidance to allow us to continue living. Am I being foolish?