Another miserable day. Went to the home where my Dad is today and things seemed not so bad to start off with. He was up noon, a minor miracle for him and seemed pleased to see me. I had tried to get my husband to teel him last night that i was coming to take him to my Mum's grave to lay some flowers as the headstone was put in yesterday. My husband told me that he seemed to understand.
Today I explained things again and suggested that I help him have a shower (he has not had one for 6 weeks). We chose the shower gel and with gentle persuasion smiles and chocolate I got him to the room. he disappeared whilst i was putting his clothes down so i went back to get him. this time putting the shower on before he got there. When he saw the shower he just ran away again so i gave up that plan.
I thought lets just get him dressed. I battled with him for a bit with him karate chopping my arms. I evetually gave him a smack on the wrist when he hurt me to try and shock him and make him understand that he had hurt me. I did not hurt him though I must stress that, it was more of a shock tactic. It seemed to work for a bit and then he took everything that I had got on off again. Evenetaully a carer came in to help me and half an hour later after much heaving a sweating (he is a big strong man) he was dressed. We set off out of the home, but on our way out he undid his trousers and two people on the door stopped him outside in sight of my car. He pointed at the car . They insisted on trying to do up his trousers and then he just turned tail and went back inside. He went to sit in a lounge in the non-dementia unit and undid his shoes and took them off. He also started undoing his shirt. I was at his feet on the floor and just burst into tears. Two and a half hours wasted effort and great trauma.
He watched me crying and did not seem to understand, although he looked slightly concerned, but as he has no speech whatsoever i will necver know what was going through his head. When he eventaully got up I let him go back to his unit and left in tears. I laid the flowers on my Mum's grave on my own.
The downturn in his dementia over the last two weeks is just shocking. He had three moves in two months because of two mini strokes after his first move and then improvement when he went into nursing. He got thrown out of his last home for visiting another resident and kissing her on the cheek when her family complained. I feel like I have done this to him, although the rational side of me knows that it is not my fault. I have tried to do the very best for him but we seem destined to have an upsetting journey to the end.
Today I explained things again and suggested that I help him have a shower (he has not had one for 6 weeks). We chose the shower gel and with gentle persuasion smiles and chocolate I got him to the room. he disappeared whilst i was putting his clothes down so i went back to get him. this time putting the shower on before he got there. When he saw the shower he just ran away again so i gave up that plan.
I thought lets just get him dressed. I battled with him for a bit with him karate chopping my arms. I evetually gave him a smack on the wrist when he hurt me to try and shock him and make him understand that he had hurt me. I did not hurt him though I must stress that, it was more of a shock tactic. It seemed to work for a bit and then he took everything that I had got on off again. Evenetaully a carer came in to help me and half an hour later after much heaving a sweating (he is a big strong man) he was dressed. We set off out of the home, but on our way out he undid his trousers and two people on the door stopped him outside in sight of my car. He pointed at the car . They insisted on trying to do up his trousers and then he just turned tail and went back inside. He went to sit in a lounge in the non-dementia unit and undid his shoes and took them off. He also started undoing his shirt. I was at his feet on the floor and just burst into tears. Two and a half hours wasted effort and great trauma.
He watched me crying and did not seem to understand, although he looked slightly concerned, but as he has no speech whatsoever i will necver know what was going through his head. When he eventaully got up I let him go back to his unit and left in tears. I laid the flowers on my Mum's grave on my own.
The downturn in his dementia over the last two weeks is just shocking. He had three moves in two months because of two mini strokes after his first move and then improvement when he went into nursing. He got thrown out of his last home for visiting another resident and kissing her on the cheek when her family complained. I feel like I have done this to him, although the rational side of me knows that it is not my fault. I have tried to do the very best for him but we seem destined to have an upsetting journey to the end.