The sun came out and I went out into the garden, I looked at the bulbs that I planted when we moved in sept 1st 2006 and now that flowers are out ,I had planted them so my husband would enjoy watching them grow.but he died on 1st Dec . we were looking forward to the garden as it was the first we have had in 10 years. Today I just felt lost ,and was mad at the sun for shining(SORRY SUN)not sure how I feel about doing the gar.den any more.Then I got a letter from the council addressed to my husband even though they wrote about breavment matters. like I said its been a bad day, I hope tomorrow is better.Sorry for mouning its been 13 weeks and it seems like yesterday but it also seems forever since I'v seen him. I miss my soul mate.