Despite her severe problems I think my mum still has much awareness - is this ever likely to go completely or could she remain like this to the end? Her moods swing from one extreme to the other, but of late she has become very tearful and has been sobbing. She is currently awaiting a place in another unit and tells me, quite coherently, that nobody wants her. It's like a knife to my heart hearing this. Then she asks to come home and all the rest of it. I know this can be a feature (wanting to go home), yet I feel she actually knows what she is saying, and knows exactly how to hurt me. All I know is that it is very hard to deal with.