Hi all never thought I would be on this part of the forum . Dad had been diagnosed for nearly 5 years but lived his life to the full right up until a fortnight before he passed away. He was admitted into hospital 12 days ago and passed away on the 4 November. I don't feel like he's gone, just waiting for him to come through the door as usual. I don't get upset when I talk to people about him going to a better place pain free and happy again. I just feel anger all the time , angry at not being able to say good bye properly angry not knowing wether he knew how much I loved him angry at wether he knew how sorry I was when we had bad days. I miss him so much but I'm not as emotional as I thought I would be. Is it because my dad went years ago and this person was just the shell of my dad. I watched some film footage of my dad and the children but struggled to remember that person that was in the footage a loving husband a great dad and wonderful grandfather. Funeral is next week and I'm not sure what to expect , will it finally hit me he's not coming back ? will I be like other people and start to mourn properly. What is normal or is there no normal? Who knows but I do miss you dad love you always xx
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