Jazzer, Thank you for sharing and to all for your words...when my mother was first diagnosed I’m sorry to say that after a few months I broke down in front of her, crying for myself because I knew one day she would forget me. That was 7 years ago (haven’t done it in front of her since) and she hasn’t forgotten me yet. She does forget a lot of things and people, can’t remember family names, but I know she is the same person somehow, just ‘locked in’ sometimes unable to articulate. Sometimes I can’t accept that she has Alzheimer’s although I just try to focus on making her life as stress free and comfortable as possible. She is in extra care sheltered but still needs family contact and me to look out for her and sort out her affairs. This post got to me and reminded me that people on this forum understand, don’t judge and share experiences. I find it a comfort to be able to share and have the utmost respect for the regulars and moderators who give their
Oh Sue. Why sorry to say you broke down in front of your mum? God knows we struggle every day to keep our tears at bay yet we are human and sometimes we are just unable to stop them. And why shouldnt you cry for yourself? There is no shame in that. God knows I've cried for myself as well as mum. Why do we beat ourselves up so badly? You are a loving, caring daughter, doing as much as you can to help and support your mum. And that's the thing - "doing as much as we can". None of us signed up for this. Thrown into a nightmare, not really knowing, but dreading what lay ahead. Each one of us struggles but we learn, somehow, to do our best for those we love. There's no instruction manual. We suddenly find the rug pulled from under us and we just have to grab onto what we can and deal with this unwanted, alien and frightening new world. I've never truly accepted mum's condition and I dont think I ever will. She doesn't deserve this, nor does your dear mum and all the other sufferers of the many and varied, but always awful, forms of this condition. Nor do any of us carers so yes, we are perfectly entitled to cry for ourselves. It's not self-pity, it's because we are hurting badly. I too have the utmost respect for everyone who shares on TP and that includes you. Thank you for your post. It's helped me and others too, I'm sure. Your mum will always love you and always know you are there. With love and hugs, Jan xxxxJazzer, Thank you for sharing and to all for your words...when my mother was first diagnosed I’m sorry to say that after a few months I broke down in front of her, crying for myself because I knew one day she would forget me. That was 7 years ago (haven’t done it in front of her since) and she hasn’t forgotten me yet. She does forget a lot of things and people, can’t remember family names, but I know she is the same person somehow, just ‘locked in’ sometimes unable to articulate. Sometimes I can’t accept that she has Alzheimer’s although I just try to focus on making her life as stress free and comfortable as possible. She is in extra care sheltered but still needs family contact and me to look out for her and sort out her affairs. This post got to me and reminded me that people on this forum understand, don’t judge and share experiences. I find it a comfort to be able to share and have the utmost respect for the regulars and moderators who give their time so selflessly. Thank you
Sue x