I posted a thread a few weeks ago now relating to the fact that my Mum (who is just 60) had been recently diagnosed with AD after a 2yr wait for the news. I received some lovely relplies but at the time things were still a little raw to respond.
Three weeks have passed now and my mind has been filled with all sorts of things, some good, some bad and some just plain terrifying.
All that occupies my mind at the moment is that I'm not ready to lose my Mum. We have always had an extremely close relationship, Mum having been on her own and raising me and my Sister, who is two yrs younger than me, since we were very young. We were and still are a very close unit.
My Mum was a great support to me when I was going through my divorce and we became even closer. For the past 2 years now I have had to make huge changes to my life, in respect of having to become the one who is depended on by their parent and to such a huge extent. I have felt scared that she no longer existed in the capacity of which she did for so many years, my Mum and all that, that role meant to her and me.
I want my Mum back and find it very hard to comprehend that 'us' will never be the same again. I cry for my Son who has had such a beautiful relationship with his Grandmother and who is also experiencing the 'changes' in Grandma and for my niece who will never know her, truly know her, as the woman she once was.
I just wanted to hear from anyone who has a parent of a relatively young age or of a young age themselves (i still class being in my 30's as young!) with AD and how they cope and deal with such emotions.
Three weeks have passed now and my mind has been filled with all sorts of things, some good, some bad and some just plain terrifying.
All that occupies my mind at the moment is that I'm not ready to lose my Mum. We have always had an extremely close relationship, Mum having been on her own and raising me and my Sister, who is two yrs younger than me, since we were very young. We were and still are a very close unit.
My Mum was a great support to me when I was going through my divorce and we became even closer. For the past 2 years now I have had to make huge changes to my life, in respect of having to become the one who is depended on by their parent and to such a huge extent. I have felt scared that she no longer existed in the capacity of which she did for so many years, my Mum and all that, that role meant to her and me.
I want my Mum back and find it very hard to comprehend that 'us' will never be the same again. I cry for my Son who has had such a beautiful relationship with his Grandmother and who is also experiencing the 'changes' in Grandma and for my niece who will never know her, truly know her, as the woman she once was.
I just wanted to hear from anyone who has a parent of a relatively young age or of a young age themselves (i still class being in my 30's as young!) with AD and how they cope and deal with such emotions.