So, I'm due to be going away with my friend for a long weekend - leaving in the next couple of hours. Mum's got carers set up, relief carers set up, family visiting this weekend, but I am stricken with guilt and nerves that something dreadful is going to happen while I'm away. I've been feeling this way since booking the break, but it's come to a bit of a head last night & this morning (I guess as the trip away became more imminent) I am being ridiculous because everyone looking after her is competent, I will be contactable by phone, I'm not leaving the UK so worse comes to worse, I could travel back relatively easily. Mum would want me to go away - and if she was well, she would tell me to stop being so stupid! Argggh, how do I get over myself? I want to enjoy this much needed time away without the fear of 'what-ifs' hanging over me.