Hi everyone ,
I was wondering if anyone could relate to how I am feeling as I seem to really be grieving at the moment as my dads condition is in the final stages.
Dad needs support with everything now , even walking when he can because of his balance - due to this I work from my parents house afew days a week to safeguard and carers come in.
I have been doing this since November and it’s really opened my eyes , especially when he had a seizure in January and it really scared me.
Since then my emotions keep going up and down because of course we have lovely moments together but then I get a wave of grief knowing that what is happening will end with me losing my dad and it’s really hard.
It is harder that he is only 60 and i look at other people around me and I just get so upset because it’s just so unfair . The only thing that brings me through the grief and despair is thinking that dad wouldn’t want me this way and he always supported me with my anxiety .
It is so bloody hard though as it isn’t a grieving process then heal , it is a grieving , heal and then grieving again.
Just feel so sad at the moment and angry ?
I was wondering if anyone could relate to how I am feeling as I seem to really be grieving at the moment as my dads condition is in the final stages.
Dad needs support with everything now , even walking when he can because of his balance - due to this I work from my parents house afew days a week to safeguard and carers come in.
I have been doing this since November and it’s really opened my eyes , especially when he had a seizure in January and it really scared me.
Since then my emotions keep going up and down because of course we have lovely moments together but then I get a wave of grief knowing that what is happening will end with me losing my dad and it’s really hard.
It is harder that he is only 60 and i look at other people around me and I just get so upset because it’s just so unfair . The only thing that brings me through the grief and despair is thinking that dad wouldn’t want me this way and he always supported me with my anxiety .
It is so bloody hard though as it isn’t a grieving process then heal , it is a grieving , heal and then grieving again.
Just feel so sad at the moment and angry ?