Another sleepless night for me

[Worthitprincess]

Hi all....I’m still really struggling mentally with everything to do with my mum being in nursing care. I know she’s safe where she is and is being looked after but processing her decline has proven more difficult than I thought. I’m sat here on my sofa now after yet another sleepless night worrying with panic and anxiety and lots of tears....I’ve been struggling with reoccurring migraines and yet again I’ve had to cancel my work for the day. This leaves me feeling hopeless and worthless. I’ve tried medication, meditation, councilling and so much more but I feel I keep hitting a brick wall. I know it’s not all doom and gloom and some days she’s great but today I don’t feel very strong but instead weak and very sad and deflated. People always tell me to look after myself and I try so hard but I never seem to do it the right way and I end up falling backwards again. I also know restrictions aren’t helping as socialising is something I know helps me and I can’t do that at present....sorry all I just wanted to write on here because I just feel so rubbish today. X

 

[kindred]

Hi all....I’m still really struggling mentally with everything to do with my mum being in nursing care. I know she’s safe where she is and is being looked after but processing her decline has proven more difficult than I thought. I’m sat here on my sofa now after yet another sleepless night worrying with panic and anxiety and lots of tears....I’ve been struggling with reoccurring migraines and yet again I’ve had to cancel my work for the day. This leaves me feeling hopeless and worthless. I’ve tried medication, meditation, councilling and so much more but I feel I keep hitting a brick wall. I know it’s not all doom and gloom and some days she’s great but today I don’t feel very strong but instead weak and very sad and deflated. People always tell me to look after myself and I try so hard but I never seem to do it the right way and I end up falling backwards again. I also know restrictions aren’t helping as socialising is something I know helps me and I can’t do that at present....sorry all I just wanted to write on here because I just feel so rubbish today. X

I’m so glad you could post on here and tell us. Shock and grief like this are very hard. I keep telling myself grief is normal ... this is surely the hardest thing to go through. With you all the way. Talk to us as much as you can.
Warmest, kindred

 

[Snuffette]

I totally understand how you feel. I know my mum is in the right place (she has dementia) and the care home are brilliant at looking after her, but sometimes I find myself thinking that maybe she hasn't got dementia too badly and I have let her down by abandoning her. These are all normal feelings and we know this, but it doesn't help does it. Take care.

 

[Worthitprincess]

Thank you for your kind words. Sometimes you need people to tell you it’s ok to feel this way!