Compassionate Communication, which we discussed earlier, is definitely an ideal to aim for but so difficult to achieve in the face of this disease so I just want to say that I failed dismally this morning. Since it’s going to go on, and on, try better next time. He said he felt hungry this morning so I gave him the same as me, juice boiled egg toast and marmalade, cup of tea which he demanded but even with these desires, I find it most difficult and I definitely have to put food on a spoon, see if he will use it and end up putting it in his mouth. Eventually he resists and I stop, just like a toddler. Then he feels dizzy and is going to faint, at which point I get him back to bed and he recovers. He got up, or at least was awake and I got him up, early this morning which is always a bad sign. I can feel my blood pressure rising and when he is safely tucked up I can relax, recover myself and reflect. I think he thinks about all these things, hunger, tea, marmalade, but when it is put into action which any rational person would do, then he finds it difficult to carry out. That’s my reading of his behaviour anyway, and I end up having to feed him the food which he doesn’t really want. Another reflection is that his body clock is so messed up that he doesn’t know what time it is and he just functions on his own internal clock.