I'm not really looking for reassurance, as I know every experience is individual. Just feeling really anxious about tomorrow. My mum's care home rang this morning and asked if I could take her to the hospital tomorrow. She has an appointment with a rheumatologist. I don't have a car, but I'm able to get a bus and then a train to the home. The home are organising transport from the home to the hospital. The problem is that the home has a 'big training day' tomorrow so obviously they don't want any member of staff to miss that. To give a bit of background: my mum was sectioned at the end of January 2015. This ended up being changed to a Section 3 and in April she was moved to an EMI care home. In the hospital mental health ward she was suffering from psychosis and hallucinations. It was horrible visiting her there because she was so scared all the time. Originally, the belief was that she had steriod psychosis, but her mental health was still deteriorating after they dealt with that. I feel so much better now my mum's at this care home, but I'm terrified of having the responsibility of taking her out of the home and to the hospital, then bringing her back. Over the couple of months that she's been in the home, I've only found her awake once. I had my husband and sister with me and, although she recognised us, she believed that we were only pretending to be her family. It was only when she spotted our dog that she apologised and realised we must be who we say we are . Even then my mum seemed to be more concerned with having my husband there than me and my sister. That doesn't bother me, because he's helped her in lots of ways over the years. It was lovely being able to talk to her, but she's at the stage where she doesn't know she's in a care home. I'm terrified that I'll make this experience more distressing for her, because I won't know how to reassure her if she gets upset. We've never had an easy relationship, but I love her very much. She was already on the mental health ward when I was told that they'd taken her in, so I've never had the responsibility for her mental health and how it affects her. Anybody else had an experience that compares with this?