in wishing that my Lionel's memory would fade quickly.? Having spent the past five years very actively trying to stimulate Lionel to be able to relate to today, I was very hurt and upset whenabout six months ago I realised that his mind and memory were fading quicker, and devasted when I knew that he did not really remember me. The last two weeks have been especially hard for both of us. Today however we have a brief visit from our new CPN. Lionel really blossomed, making jokes about my address, (he has had no knowledge of where we used to live for the past 3 months).....and then at the end of this brief visit said to me laughing "well did I say what you asked me to?)It was lovely to see the old Lionel. About 20 minutes later you could see the change in him. Realisation again set in, and he was in such despair. "why have you put me in here. Do you hate me this much? Will I never get well? " and so it went on, and on. Is it so wrong to just want him to forget completely.......he was so tormented as I left him tonight, and I was in tears driving home. I do hope he has forgotten some more tomorrow.