my husband is in hospital he went ‘off his legs’ not sure if a rapid change in Alzheimer’s uti or what, mobility doesn’t seem to be improving, he doesn’t have any conversation apart from the odd words his only pleasure seems to be eating! He seems settled and watches what is going on arround him what goes on in his mind I don’t know. Home would require a package of carers, hoist bed etc I always thought I would look after him at home as long as possible now all I see is him sitting in his room hoisted by people coming into the house and me popping in and out checking he’s ok as he just has 4 walls to look at so I’m thinking why am I doing this? Should he be somewhere with people arround 24/7 and things going on to stimulate him... for I’ve now tasted freedom sorry if hat sounds selfish but I’ve been caring for him solely for 4 / 5 years and the last ten months it’s been very physically demanding had I been more his age - I’m 63 Snd he’s 80 I wouldn’t of done the things I’ve done. Oh the guilt and sadness of feeling like this ... anyone been there?