I had one of those bad days on Tuesday but bounced back.
Today I feel like I'm in hell and as yet can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Mum was up and dressed at 8.15(always a bad sign!!). From that time there have been constant digs at me with real hate and venom . I have talked with her, cajoled her, taken her to the most beautiful places but everything was wrong....She's exhausted but won't rest....She's constantly pacing around wanting to go to church and/or go home....told her she's in no fit state to go anywhere because she's very unsteady on her feet....insists she can walk the 50 miles to Loughborough because she's an army girl(she served in the ATS 1942-1945)
She hit me with her walking stick and then slapped me round the face twice when I tried to get it off her....then she went wobbly and I don't know if it was for real because when I guided her to a chair she hit me again.
She was never like this when I looked after her in her own home and she was never like this with my brother.What am I doing wrong?What have I done?I've taken her from her home and as far as I'm concerned I seem to have just accelerated her decline....
Sorry I don't mean to sound full of self pity....just needed to let off a bit of steam..I suppose drugs will probably be the answer but she's never had them before as far as I know and what if they make the situation worse?On the other hand these episodes can't be doing any her any good.
As i'm writing this she continues to pace,refusing to sit down,Ifeel pretty inadequate and helpless
Even Michael's thread can't raise a smile at the moment
Wendy
Today I feel like I'm in hell and as yet can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Mum was up and dressed at 8.15(always a bad sign!!). From that time there have been constant digs at me with real hate and venom . I have talked with her, cajoled her, taken her to the most beautiful places but everything was wrong....She's exhausted but won't rest....She's constantly pacing around wanting to go to church and/or go home....told her she's in no fit state to go anywhere because she's very unsteady on her feet....insists she can walk the 50 miles to Loughborough because she's an army girl(she served in the ATS 1942-1945)
She hit me with her walking stick and then slapped me round the face twice when I tried to get it off her....then she went wobbly and I don't know if it was for real because when I guided her to a chair she hit me again.
She was never like this when I looked after her in her own home and she was never like this with my brother.What am I doing wrong?What have I done?I've taken her from her home and as far as I'm concerned I seem to have just accelerated her decline....
Sorry I don't mean to sound full of self pity....just needed to let off a bit of steam..I suppose drugs will probably be the answer but she's never had them before as far as I know and what if they make the situation worse?On the other hand these episodes can't be doing any her any good.
As i'm writing this she continues to pace,refusing to sit down,Ifeel pretty inadequate and helpless
Even Michael's thread can't raise a smile at the moment
Wendy