mum was cremated on the 28th of july i had to do a reading totally broke down near the end felt like i was a wailing banshe, thought i had every thing under controll not likely. dad has gone away on his own we are picking him up has been on his own for the last 10 days. he has cleaned out the house and has tried to get rid of every thing that was mums, house seams so barren now it is as if he as taken the essence of mum away. i do not think he will be the same again as is health is very frail.i feel like there is this great big void now even whe she was so very sick she was still there and some times when you are talking you will say mum and dad and then you suddenly remember that she is not alive. you cry when you are least expecting it like reading and you find there is no reason for it.have to move on mum would want that.there is one thing i no is that we allways think they are going to be there for ever and thy are not. for get your petty row etc just love them even for there faults as life is fleeting.