It is never too late @jennifer1967 . You are brave and your life will be different thanks to the new strength and awareness you are building up in your mind and heart.thanks @margherita i think humilated because i have let it happen to me again. some would say havent you learnt so have different relationships. no because i have had no good relationships to compare it to. i thought that was what love is and how men should act. ive nothing to compare it to so the same patterns get repeated over and over again. i was brought up the victim of multiple forms of abuse and didnt go to other houses to see different relationships so i didnt learn there was a difference.
We all made mistakes in the past. Actually, I don't like to call them " mistakes " , because whatever we did ( or didn't) was the best we could do in that moment and at that time. Nobody voluntarily chooses to make wrong decisions.