I am experiencing a right mixed bag of emotions at the moment. Today Alan had the all clear from the hospital regarding his cataract surgery and they said it all looks absolutely wonderful. He is discharged.
Alan is having more and more periods of extreme agitation, anxiety and fear and I am finding these times extremely difficult to cope with. I feel like my nerves are on edge all the time and I cannot relax at all. Alan seems to understand less of what I say. Tonight I half watched a programme about two men and they were just having normal chit chat and a laugh. It made me feel so depressed because I have forgotten what it's like to have normal conversation of more than half a sentence. I don't even want to speak to anyone now!! It was only last week that I was saying that Alan is doing ok and talking quite clearly (meaning a full sentence - or enough for me to understand) and it is followed by this You all seem to be coping with so much more but I needed to speak this out to people who can listen.
Love
Alan is having more and more periods of extreme agitation, anxiety and fear and I am finding these times extremely difficult to cope with. I feel like my nerves are on edge all the time and I cannot relax at all. Alan seems to understand less of what I say. Tonight I half watched a programme about two men and they were just having normal chit chat and a laugh. It made me feel so depressed because I have forgotten what it's like to have normal conversation of more than half a sentence. I don't even want to speak to anyone now!! It was only last week that I was saying that Alan is doing ok and talking quite clearly (meaning a full sentence - or enough for me to understand) and it is followed by this You all seem to be coping with so much more but I needed to speak this out to people who can listen.
Love