Hi
@Palerider - what a difference a week or so makes. I am so sorry not to have been able to send my love and support to you and your lovely Mum.
The reason I have not been around is that I have had hideously awful computer problems (think - losing all my files, including a whole lot of my last photos of Mum and a whole load of EoL documentation that I just had not remembered to back up as usual ).
Thankfully following a very large payment and some remote jiggery pokery, they got every thing back for me (Mum must have been looking out for me, as frankly I would have paid or done ANYTHING to get those folders back).
Passwords and everything had disappeared, so a lot of resetting and backing up was needed ...
Reading back your thread for the last week or so, I really feel for you and remember only too well that 'twilight' feeling that Canary talks about. Your days have a strange 'other worldliness' to them. You are anticipating something that is inevitable - you really don't want it to happen - but you know it will bring an end to the suffering of someone that you love unreservedly. Your days are full of 'what ifs?' 'should I's?' and 'if only's' along with the sad 'how long's?' and awful imaginings of what things will be like when it is over. It is a lonely and difficult time. However you have good friends here who will be with you.
I am so happy for both you and your Mum that you could share some time together. Treasure it and hold it close to you - it was a gift.
Take care. My thoughts and prayers are with you both.