Thank you all of you for your kind words of support, I can say that the last few weeks have been dramatic, but the last few days a teary journey indeed.
So today I got to visit my best friend mum. I stayed with her for an hour and she recognised me -I couldn’t believe it! She has awoken for now, but is clearly very unwell and very frail, she doesn’t look like mum at all, just a very thin and weak little old lady, not able to move her legs and very tired and barely taking anything to drink or eat. Her hands are cold and have the give away purple mottled tinge.
She held my hand and squeezed it tightly as she recognised me which got me all teary but I had to stop that, didn’t want her picking up on my emotions. She told me she was very tired and felt unwell and that it was time to go home. She kept on dosing off and then would wake and fall asleep again. There was some conversation, but it didn’t last long. I kissed her on the forehead and she waived goodbye as I walked out and closed her eyes. I’d put Classic FM on for her and as she dosed she smiled to the music.
She was more lucid than she has been since January and she seemed exhausted and weary of this long journey.
I don’t know when or if I will see her again. I think she may last a week perhaps two, but unlikely. I love her so much and she is a star even now, she tried her best for me. I am glad I saw her and glad I know that above all else she is comfortable. I won't be allowed to visit again unless she deteriorates further.