Thanks @Cat27 @Shedrech @Bikerbeth and @DesperateofDevon -it was a strangely peaceful day for both mum and myself. I took comfort in the fact she was happy in her own world and after a teary moment or two I resolved as well. @Shedrech -yes I agree mum has had a good life, hard at times but good none-the-less and she would think on the same lines. She also would not have wanted me to continue being stressed and struggling to care for her as her illness gets worse, I know deep down she would not want that at all -the trouble is we carers find it hard to let go, to allow ourselves to say when things have become too much. I guess where we are now is balance of the two, its not perfect, but its better than the direction we were going in before the CH (if that makes sense).
I made a quick visit yesterday before lunch and mum was fine and wearing her new trousers, she said they were very comfortable and could she have another pair. As I am going back to M&S today to return my own trousers (which annoyngly don't fit despite being the right size) I will pick up another pair for her. Tempting to take her with me, but the last time I took her she caused mayhem in the gents toilets (yes she went in th mens loos thinking it was the womens and I couldn't get her out) -nightmare moment and lesson learned
I made a quick visit yesterday before lunch and mum was fine and wearing her new trousers, she said they were very comfortable and could she have another pair. As I am going back to M&S today to return my own trousers (which annoyngly don't fit despite being the right size) I will pick up another pair for her. Tempting to take her with me, but the last time I took her she caused mayhem in the gents toilets (yes she went in th mens loos thinking it was the womens and I couldn't get her out) -nightmare moment and lesson learned