I may join you in that self treatFrom a personal growth point of view there is quite a learning curve, think some people pay thousands for such teachings!
I do think letting go is the key, problem is the lock is a bit rusty sometimes!
I was reading a sample of Ursula Le Gains translation of Tao te Ching, I may treat myself. I feel need for a treat coming on.
Although the wise say true happiness is not needing or wanting anything, letting go again!