A Letter To My Mother I Cannot Send

JackieJames

Registered User
Dec 31, 2014
83
USA
To My Mother:
I love you so very much. I think you know this on a certain level. I no longer know what to do. My hands are tied. My heart breaks for you. I want you here but I don’t want you to suffer any longer. These are two seemingly contradictory wishes. As I pray for you to live through each and every crisis, at times I wish you could just go in peace. I felt guilty at first for having these feelings, but I now know that both come from a place of love. Either way I suffer. But it is not about me; this is about you. Oh my dear God, please do what is best for my mother.
I miss you, yet you are with me. I love you, yet I get frustrated and angry. It is not you I am angry at, it is this awful disease that strips away your dignity, independence, and the very essence of you.
I will try to remember the good times, the way you gave to so many throughout your life. Your unending patience. Oh my dear mother, you do not deserve this. No one does.
 

nannylondon

Registered User
Apr 7, 2014
2,475
London
To My Mother:
I love you so very much. I think you know this on a certain level. I no longer know what to do. My hands are tied. My heart breaks for you. I want you here but I don’t want you to suffer any longer. These are two seemingly contradictory wishes. As I pray for you to live through each and every crisis, at times I wish you could just go in peace. I felt guilty at first for having these feelings, but I now know that both come from a place of love. Either way I suffer. But it is not about me; this is about you. Oh my dear God, please do what is best for my mother.
I miss you, yet you are with me. I love you, yet I get frustrated and angry. It is not you I am angry at, it is this awful disease that strips away your dignity, independence, and the very essence of you.
I will try to remember the good times, the way you gave to so many throughout your life. Your unending patience. Oh my dear mother, you do not deserve this. No one does.
What a moving post brought tears to my eyes I totally understand how you feel the anger at this disease is felt by lots of us sending you a big hug ((((( ))))) xx
 

Kazsul

Registered User
Sep 13, 2015
19
North somerset
Jackie, your words and thoughts could be mine. Never wanting to lose your loved one but a never ending ache in your heart as each day passes and you lose a little more.


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