Hello all and seasons greetings I hardly come on to here as never find the time in my hectic life but just needed an ear of 2 about stuff you'll understand. Mum went into a nursing home due to recuperation from an acute illness which was a great 'lever' to get her into somewhere safe. She's been there for 6 months and recently has been wanting to see her flat (which still is not sold) I've driven her passed it but am reticent to let her go in (gut feeling this is the best thing for her). She is definitely not able to live there, even with a care package. I just feel really mean and have no one else to reassure me or critise me for the decision to not let her go in the flat (hasten to add that sometimes she denies she's ever lived there). Also I'm going skiing over Xmas as it's the first time I shall have been away without worrying my self stupid but of course now the guilt of not being with Mum at Xmas to building up. Generally Mum is getting lovelier but the day and overly grateful for the support I give her. She cries with happiness when she sees me ( most days) and is devastated when I go. It would almost be easier? is she was nasty and forgot who I am occasionally. Anyway i'm rambling now!