Yesterday I asked B what is special about July 4th for us, and all he could think of was the U.S. holiday. Today, when it was obvious he still could not remember, I told him it was our anniversary, and he was surprised a year had passed since the last one. When we were at dinner he said "I forgot our anniversary, but I didn't forget that I love you every day". I quietly caught my breath and pushed down the sadness.
On his own, during dinner, he started to reminesce about our first movie he took me to and then I asked him about the first concert. He couldn't remember it and then he really turned and couldn't remember my sister's name (a hint as to the name of the band - The Hollies), his mother's name, my mother's name.....it was just all behind a wall that came down with a thud. I quickly pushed back the tears and we stopped talking.
Another roller-coaster day in the land of dementia with the man I love, and miss.
On his own, during dinner, he started to reminesce about our first movie he took me to and then I asked him about the first concert. He couldn't remember it and then he really turned and couldn't remember my sister's name (a hint as to the name of the band - The Hollies), his mother's name, my mother's name.....it was just all behind a wall that came down with a thud. I quickly pushed back the tears and we stopped talking.
Another roller-coaster day in the land of dementia with the man I love, and miss.