I am reaching out to anybody,somebody to please help me understand my mom who is 60, and her getting tested,mri's,cat scans, for her memory. I'll start off with my mom , the most special woman ever has been mentally ill since I was 3, shes been in institutions all my life, after years of saying it was this and that she finally was diagnosed with bi-polar, severe social anxiety disorder, ptsd , from physical abuse from my dad, who passed away on my birthday drinking and driving. for the last 21 years she has been in hospital sometimes a year ata time,6 months,3 months etc. Christmas day she said to me I need to go back to the hospital , I'm hearing things again ,so she was admitted that day as she was just realeased in august after for months for the same thing , this admission is the worst ive ever seen, I noticed her memory wasn't the best for quite some time, ive always taken care of my mum ,shes all I have , I'm sorry I cant even write this without crying so , this admission they did tests on her mind, they said she has short term memory lose, then an MRI was done and showed some deteriation , in just a week she went from not having the best memory to , someone that's not my mum, she is so scared they are going to murder her, her dr. she screams a scream I wish id never heard because I hear it every night ,saying KIMBERLY PLEASE HELP ME I NEED YOU THEY ARE GOING TO KILL ME,CUT ME UP AND BURN ME,its the saddest thing ive ever seen and I cant imagine how she feels, my heart is broken , ive been voicing my concerns daily as she is not telling her dr everything shes telling me, they give her privliges to leave the unit for two hours a day or 4 hour pass, all the while shes telling me I'm leaving here before I die ,she says I'm going to leave to come take care of you etc because ive been diagnosed with cervical cancer ,I have depression,social anxiety disorder and adult ADD, and I tell her I'm ok mum, but I'm not I had surgery Tuesday past and this Thursday a major surgery but Its like I don't care about me right now ,I want her to be and the drs,nurses ot professionals aren't listening to me , I did manage to get her privliges revoked but as of today when I had to go there they were given back and ive never been so scared in my life, the dr said to me, did you maybe think that you looking sad nyour tone being that of sadness is possibly whats making your mom sick and said that maybe I should stay away for awhile, MY GOD NO IM NOT? AM I? So I need maybe some help or info about what I can do and I don't even understand fully whats going on etc, can someone please help me, she needs me but right now I'm very sick and stressed beyond words and I'm afraid for both of us