hi everyone
i am new to this site today but am hoping i can get some comfort and perhaps positive feedback, i lost my mum 3 yrs ago yesterday to alzheimers and am still finding her loss very difficult to cope with, she was such a happy,mild natured woman until this terrible disease took over her mind!! she was diagnosed at 58 yrs of age and then changed completely to a violent and agressive woman, i think thsi was the hardest part to cope with, until the day she didn't recognise me or my son anymore,whom she adored! why did this teriible disease take my mum away from me when i still need her? 10 weeks before she died my sister and i felt my dad wasn't coping and contacted her cpn which now was the worst thing we could of done, as she was admitted to a psychiatric assessment unit which to say the least weren't used to dealing with young alzheimers patients who also had mobility problems, within a week mum had fallen and broken her hip, had become doubly incontinent, that dehydrated that her kidneys failed, i now feel so bitter and guilty for what happened to her as if we hadn't interfered maybe she wouldn't have suffered so much in that hell hole!!
i have so many mixed feelings still, anger, guilt, and above all the biggest sense of loss for a beautiful,wonderful mum.
sorry if this hasn't been the most positive of postings but feel that maybe someone out there may be able to relate to how i am feeling even after 3 yrs after mums death
thx for listening
Sal
xx
i am new to this site today but am hoping i can get some comfort and perhaps positive feedback, i lost my mum 3 yrs ago yesterday to alzheimers and am still finding her loss very difficult to cope with, she was such a happy,mild natured woman until this terrible disease took over her mind!! she was diagnosed at 58 yrs of age and then changed completely to a violent and agressive woman, i think thsi was the hardest part to cope with, until the day she didn't recognise me or my son anymore,whom she adored! why did this teriible disease take my mum away from me when i still need her? 10 weeks before she died my sister and i felt my dad wasn't coping and contacted her cpn which now was the worst thing we could of done, as she was admitted to a psychiatric assessment unit which to say the least weren't used to dealing with young alzheimers patients who also had mobility problems, within a week mum had fallen and broken her hip, had become doubly incontinent, that dehydrated that her kidneys failed, i now feel so bitter and guilty for what happened to her as if we hadn't interfered maybe she wouldn't have suffered so much in that hell hole!!
i have so many mixed feelings still, anger, guilt, and above all the biggest sense of loss for a beautiful,wonderful mum.
sorry if this hasn't been the most positive of postings but feel that maybe someone out there may be able to relate to how i am feeling even after 3 yrs after mums death
thx for listening
Sal
xx