We're now two behind getting a room for Dad in our choice of home. He's had a chest infection, and at 01:30 this morning the hospital phone me to tell me he was quite poorly - they were taking blood samples, and giving him a chest X Ray. After waking me up, my heart pounding at around 120+ bpm, I pulled my self around enough to ask, what do we need to do? The staff nurse calmly replied "nothing" - "just go back to sleep, you lucky person", "and phone us in the morning". So, after tossing and turning, wondering if I should be at the bedside of my Dad, I eventually fell back to sleep. 07:30am - I phone the hospital "how is he?"; "he's a little brighter"; "Oh" I said, "I was phoned at 1:30 this morning", "yes, we've not handed over yet, I'll get one of the night girls"; "hello can I help you?" a loud voice - "how's my Dad?","he's a little brighter but not out of the woods yet, can you phone after 11:30, when the ward round has been, we can update you then" 12:00 " he's very poorly" - "we've got him on IV antibiotics"; "oh" I said "whats the prognosis?" ; "sorry can't tell you that over the phone" was the reply, "should we be there?"; "it might be better if you did" - I can't get there til this evening, but it don't look too good..... Can't understand if he has a fever., infection or what? - is he dying? It's so confusing! - i went round to Mums at lunch time to let her know what was happening - she didn't take much of it in "not to worry she said we're going tomorrow afternoon and I'll take him some of his ribena...." Ther Social worker phoned me at work this morning - "I'll get you the CPN report for next week, she's on holidays" - "I saw your dad this morning he was sleeping" - "Did you realise he was Ill?" i asked, "No she said", "Oh I beleive he's very poorly" I added; "don't worry he'll be fine" she said.... Is this the end?