I've posted before when I needed to rant and it kind of helped so here I go again.
Mom has vascular dementia and Alzheimer's. Along with a whole host of other illnesses including depression. She's in mid stages but to look at her you wouldn't think there's any thing wrong. It's so frustrating when meeting new people or old friends even family (who think I'm lying about the results).
Daily she sleeps a lot. I have to wake her around 11 for insulin and food. Her doctor said the sleeping isn't part of dementia. She has to have three meals because of insulin injections which is our main daily argument she always says she doesn't want to eat unless it's sugar, cakes, puddings, buiscuts etc.. all of which she can't have along with alcohol.
She complains that I control her life. I admit I do but when she would put herself into a diabetic coma within a day I feel I have to.
I hate looking after her. I want my life back. She goes to a group on a thursday but she doesn't want to go and it's a battle to get her there ( with my siblings telling her she doesn't have to go ). It's the only break I get.
I have a husband and he's great but he can't cope with her as she gets worse and i know he wants me to put her in a home. But I can't she wouldn't agree to go it's her worst fear.
Last night I had to stand in the middle of her and my daughter (17 year old who mom hates since being ill) because mom wanted to hit her. I had to push mom away. It's heart breaking to see.
No one sees the stubborn argumentative moody person that we get on a daily basis.
Physically apart from the sleeping she's quite mobile. But she can't cook for herself or wash clothes, she has no idea what medication she has to have unless it's in her boxes, that kind of thing.
I want a happy home once more I want my mom back. 😢