This is the first time i have written on here but need to put in words how im feeling.
My mum was diagnosed with Alzheimers May 2011 but we knew something was wrong from the christmas time. We got a bigger house and moved mum in with us in the September as she wasnt coping on her own. Up until now it has been ok but im getting so tired and i get very stressed with my mum i hate myself for being like this. I work monday to friday as well as making sure my mum is up and ready for day care or dancing that she goes to. I make sure her clothes are out for her i bascially have to do everything for her now. I have a carer in a few hours a week as mum wont make a drink or eat or take her tablets anymore. I am making sure she has different day activities to keep her motivation up and to stop her just sitting down staring at the tele. My daughter takes her for tea one day a week. My partner is good with my mum. It is now getting to the point where we dont sleep much as mum is up and down several times in the night either toilet, or getting dressed or just wandering about. We get money for mum monthly so she can have a bit of care and do the activities but now that money is not enough for the care she is starting to need. I just dont no what to do. I couldnt think about a home yet as im sure it would make her worse and i would never forgive myself. I am scared of even going to a home because you hear of so many horror stories about the way people are treated, But we really need a break. Just to walk out the house without having to make sure my mum is cared for or to get a proper nights sleep would be great. I just need to let this out. Want to stop feeling like this want my mum back.