My Dad has Alzheimer's and Parkinson's - we are an extremely close family and support each other at every turn. My Dad is in a nursing home where they are so wonderful to him and we visit constantly and on Friday I just broke down and the matron took me into her room and was beyond compassionate (her own father has the disease) so methinks she understood every word I was saying. She told me that Dad is dying slowly and that Mum & I just need to keep doing what we are doing. The thing is, I am trying to be strong for Mum but I feel a mess. Sometimes I cannot function properly and see Dad's lovely face before I go to sleep and first thing in the morning. It really haunts me as he looks stressed most of the time and hunched over with the Parkinson's. I became a grandmother for the first time 4 weeks ago and the high I felt was amazing and it lifted us all but then we took the baby to meet her Great Granddad and he was on an awful day so he didn't respond at all. He would have idolised her and this got to me. It's like being on a rollercoaster ride and emotions all over the place and my Mum's stress levels are so bad - she stresses over the most tiny thing but I know that it's not really that. I really do feel broken and cannot concentrate on anything anymore - at least I have my beautiful new granddaughter to focus on. I really don't know how much more my Dad's mind and body can take as the Parkinson's is taking its toll and sometimes his head is on his knees. Just getting ready now to pick up Mum and go to see him and I have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that just won't go away. Anyway, thank you for this site as I see other heartbreaking stories and know that we are not alone. I want Dad to have peace and although I don't think it will be too long, it is too long (if that makes any sense). I love the bones of him.