A fond "farewell"....
Eric has found peace at last. I was a bit overwhelmed by the attendance at the service..(but couldn't help thinking "why weren't they there while he was still with us"?)
Hopefully those present will have contributed generously to the Alzheimers Society.
I truly thought that my love for Eric had been extinguished because of the traumatic times we went through..possibly even before he was diagnosed.
With hindsight (that wonderful gift!) I now realise that it was that love which we initially had that kept me with him through his struggle..even though at times I did resent it and often felt that I should be doing more.
Thankyou, Talking Point, for being here at a time when our life was spiralling out of control and I was trying to come to terms with Alzheimers and Eric and and a multitude of other family problems too.
You never failed me..there was always someone who would reply to a post sent in desperation.
TP has changed considerably since I was first around..but change is necessary in order to keep up with the demand for knowledge and support.
To all of you who read this...I wish you strength and am thankful that you have TP to turn to.
Eric has gone, I am richer for the experience. Dementia still surrounds me..the lady next door, the lady up the road, an ex colleague's father...in my own way I will support and be there for these people to the best of my ability.
For now I am exhausted..something I never imagined. Grief takes its toll in varying ways.
I'm lucky with my work...they are very understanding and are happy for me to ease myself back in my own time.
Can I finally say "thankyou" to all of you for being there for me throughout our journey?
Some at different times..some came and went..some I met up with, some I didn't. You are all special people who played a part in our lives and I won't ever forget that.
Love xx
Please don't respond to this post. If you do want to contact me you're welcome to do so by PM or phone if you have my number. I will look in from time to time. x