Hi Sylvia,
Just found your thread here. I am not surprised at all that you are numb and feel adrift. I remember complete exhaustion when Mum finally left us, even though it had been expected for so long...my brain just seemed to cease functioning. After thee weeks I tried to work again, but it took a little longer...a couple of months.
It was not just grieving for Mum, but for an old lifestyle, for the friends I had made in the nursing home I was no longer seeing regularly, for the lack of that caring role, no matter how hard it had become, wishing there had been just one more cup of tea....
Take your time to come to terms with all that has happened. Take your time to relax and let your thoughts wander to times past, present and future....Dhiren will be with you and in time you will feel some joy once more interspersed with some pain, which decreases as time passes.
Love n hugs
Mameeskye