We are both still here, but father can't manage any liquids, thickened or otherwise without great pain and distress so no one is going to try any more.
I am not sure I am mentally or physically strong enough to stay through the night, but we will take it one step at a time.
Poor pa.
Lizzie
Poor Pa but Poor your too. You are so strong to put what you know your dad needs first to let him be peaceful. If he is in pain then I really think a doctor should be called in for morphine or whatever they recommend. When my Dad was dying and in pain, the doctors knew the morphine could hasten his death, may be by hours, may be by days, but it would be without pain.
They took the decisions for us in those days back in the 70s and I know treatments have improved so much. I'd be wanting him to be pain free and relaxed and asking doctors to sort that out. But if I was where you are now, I'd just be in pieces.
1970's or 2013, your heart breaks just the same. May I send you a virtual hug.xx