It's been an upsetting day and I feel guilty because I lost my temper with my dad today on the phone. I swore at him and quickly ended the conversation, I said goodbye but I ended it abruptly. Dad is 69, he lives on his own and has vascular dementia. I am his sole carer but i work full time and I am trying hard but he can be frustrating. I have taken steps to ask for help from social services and dad is waiting for an assessment at home. he drinks far too much and is dependant on alcohol and it doesn't help matters. I love him dearly and I just want my old dad back. I feel so guilty and can't sleep for feeling so sad.