Yesterday Mum announced that she is ready to move to a care home. I have been trying to persuade her to do this for a while, as her condition has got worse, but of course she has not wanted to. I live 2 hours drive away and last week she had a really bad fall, which I think has made her accept that she can no longer live alone.
I should be really pleased and relieved that she is willing to move (I have found a lovely place near me) and in a way I am, and yet I can't think about it without bursting into tears. I am crying as I write this. Mum has lived in this house for 50 years and I grew up here, and suddenly I can't bear the thought of her leaving and me never seeing my family home again. I really need to discuss the practicalities with her (we haven't mentioned the subject again since the announcement) but I can't because I only have to think about it for the tears to start and I have to leave the room so that she doesn't see I'm upset. I need to be strong for her - how on earth do I stop myself crying all the time?
J
I should be really pleased and relieved that she is willing to move (I have found a lovely place near me) and in a way I am, and yet I can't think about it without bursting into tears. I am crying as I write this. Mum has lived in this house for 50 years and I grew up here, and suddenly I can't bear the thought of her leaving and me never seeing my family home again. I really need to discuss the practicalities with her (we haven't mentioned the subject again since the announcement) but I can't because I only have to think about it for the tears to start and I have to leave the room so that she doesn't see I'm upset. I need to be strong for her - how on earth do I stop myself crying all the time?
J