It is now some 7 years since my wife was diagnosed with AD when she was aged 62, having been told she had MCI (Minor Cognitive Impairment) two years earlier. Her decline has as far as I can tell been remarkably benign but her mini memory results are now beginning to deteriorate. Aricept has been replaced by Memantine and she can deceive still the casual contact that she doesn't have any problems, but the constant repetition soon gives the game away.
I am the sole carer, my family live 200 miles away and in Canada. It is all becoming very stressful, not only for me but also my wife. I feel as though I'm in a tunnel and the light at the end is getting further away not closer. I know I shouldn't feel like this, is it a normal reaction or am I just being selfish? I could write pages on what has gone on but all of you who are carers have been through it all and seen it many times no doubt, so I ask myself what is the point of doing that? If only I knew how much longer this is going to continue. I know my wife, poor woman will never get her real life back but I'd sure as hell like mine back. I can hear cries of disapproval from many, maybe all of you but this is the brutal reality for me.
My wife is at times stunningly lucid but has a memory span of about 10 seconds. She now has more frequent spells of anger, agitation and confusion. I have learnt not to correct or disagree with her and have again had to seek help from the police to find her this week. Her overall lucidity and awareness indicate that a care home solution is still some way off but after 7 years it is all beginning to get me down. Please try to understand if I come across as somewhat cold hearted but I feel my life is draining away.
I am the sole carer, my family live 200 miles away and in Canada. It is all becoming very stressful, not only for me but also my wife. I feel as though I'm in a tunnel and the light at the end is getting further away not closer. I know I shouldn't feel like this, is it a normal reaction or am I just being selfish? I could write pages on what has gone on but all of you who are carers have been through it all and seen it many times no doubt, so I ask myself what is the point of doing that? If only I knew how much longer this is going to continue. I know my wife, poor woman will never get her real life back but I'd sure as hell like mine back. I can hear cries of disapproval from many, maybe all of you but this is the brutal reality for me.
My wife is at times stunningly lucid but has a memory span of about 10 seconds. She now has more frequent spells of anger, agitation and confusion. I have learnt not to correct or disagree with her and have again had to seek help from the police to find her this week. Her overall lucidity and awareness indicate that a care home solution is still some way off but after 7 years it is all beginning to get me down. Please try to understand if I come across as somewhat cold hearted but I feel my life is draining away.