Mum is having her check up/follow up appointment tomorrow, and today I have felt the strain and the anxiety and am not looking forward to the appointment as Mum is declining. People do not understand how I feel as you probably have all already experienced. At the last appointment the consultant said that Mum is at the start of the moderate stage already only being told she was at the start of the mild stage 6 months previous, I can only see what she scores tomorrow, I can't help but let the score control how I feel, it is hard to say the least. I try to be strong but she is my Mum and it hurts and it feels like it is tearing me apart inside. Mum is oblivious to what she has got and often says that she thinks her memory is getting better bless her. I have to put a big smile on my face so she doesn't think things are that bad, I don't want her to be upset and worry. Thank you for listening, I hope you are all OK xxxxxxx