missing Ray now
I had my daughter and her family here for two weeks and they kept me busy. We started some of the paperwork , made some phone calls and paid the last of the bills while Shirley was here to be my escort. I was really grateful for all their help and support.
They all went home two days ago. Yesterday I was fine and it was like a rest day for me. Today I decided to go to the Nursing Home Ray had been in and give out boxes of chocolates to the staff. It was probably a bit early for that as I felt wretched when I got home.
Tonight I started missing him, just missed seeing him, talking to him, feeling I was still an essential part of his life. I guess this feeling will last a while.
I will become accustomed to my widowed state I know. I have seen others go through this and know that it is a matter of putting up with the pain until it goes, or dulls down at least.
One day at a time as usual. Thanks for all your help and support.