Dear Sarah-Anne
So sorry you've had a bad day. That's the way it goes, though. You just think you're feeling better, when Wham!, you're back to square one. Just keep going, love, you'll come through it.
Your mom must be feeling so sad, too. I don't think she'll give up, she's got you! You're both going to be strong for each other.
As for the counselling, it's a very personal decision. It works very well for some people, but not for everyone. It might do you good to talk to someone, but you have to decide.
What about ringing Samaritans? You don't have to be suicidal. It would give you the chance to talk anonymously, for as long as you like. They won't press you to talk about anything you don't want to, and if you don't like it, you can just ring off and not ring again. There's no commitment.
I'm glad to see you've been posting to other threads. You're doing well. I know it's hard, but you'll be OK.
Keep in touch,
Love,