I apologize if this sounds like a bunch of nonsense rambling but this is my first post and I will probably have to write this over the course of several days because I do not get much time to work on things. I have been helping my parents out for several years. It has gotten to the point where they need someone with them constantly. I have been staying with them for about 18 months now. My dad has a lot of physical problems with severe COPD and kidney disease being the two worse ones. My mom has dementia that has progressively gotten worse over the course of the last 18 months. My dads condition prevents him from doing a lot to help my mom, but he tries. I teach school and I was able to take 12 weeks FMLA last year and my sister took 12 weeks also. With it currently being summer I am able to stay with them full time right now. I am concerned about what is going to happen when school starts again at the end of summer. We are trying to find someone to come in during the day but we are not having much luck. Because of costs, I would like to find something that Medicare would cover.
The stress that I experience is really getting to me. My mom will spend some days wandering the house constantly. We have to follow her around because we are concerned she will fall because she has a bad knee. She is also becoming weak because we have a lot of trouble getting her to eat. She will spend some days crying for various reasons. Sometimes she crys for relatives that have been deceased for over 30 years, she spends a lot of time crying that she wants to go home even though she is already home. She wants to go to a home from her youth that no longer exists. Sometimes she doesn't know why she is crying.
The meanness and hatefulness towards us is getting worse. I have learned to ignore it when she says bad things about me but my sister has a hard time handling it. I hope not to offend anyone with my next statement but I have become very angry at God. This kind of disease should not happen to good people. I believe this is something that He can stop but chooses not to so that we can all suffer.
Again this was written while spending a lot of time running around the house. Sorry if some of it doesn't make sense, I left out a lot of details. Thank you for reading.
The stress that I experience is really getting to me. My mom will spend some days wandering the house constantly. We have to follow her around because we are concerned she will fall because she has a bad knee. She is also becoming weak because we have a lot of trouble getting her to eat. She will spend some days crying for various reasons. Sometimes she crys for relatives that have been deceased for over 30 years, she spends a lot of time crying that she wants to go home even though she is already home. She wants to go to a home from her youth that no longer exists. Sometimes she doesn't know why she is crying.
The meanness and hatefulness towards us is getting worse. I have learned to ignore it when she says bad things about me but my sister has a hard time handling it. I hope not to offend anyone with my next statement but I have become very angry at God. This kind of disease should not happen to good people. I believe this is something that He can stop but chooses not to so that we can all suffer.
Again this was written while spending a lot of time running around the house. Sorry if some of it doesn't make sense, I left out a lot of details. Thank you for reading.