Hello everyone
I went to see Mum today after having a week off, to try and recharge my own batteries which are depleted. In a way it makes things harder, as Mum had forgotten me completely, and just went round in a circle of "Who are you? Are you the same age as me? Where have I been? I'd forgotten all about you. I thought I was all on my own. I thought I'd never see anyone again. How come you can do things and I can't? How come you know what's going on?" round and round and round in a big circle.
Something has been playing on my mind. I bought Mum a new electric profiling bed at the end of November. At the time I looked at airflow mattresses and thought should I buy a new one, but I didn't. Now I wonder, if I had, might Mum have avoided these awful pressure sores? The reason for me thinking this is, when I went to see her after a week's holiday in January of this year, she was on a new Cairwave mattress, and you might recall me saying the tissue nurse commented on it, and the home's nurse said, "Well, her last mattress broke." Now I am wondering, did the old mattress breaking cause the pressure sore?
In fact it has been playing on my mind so much that I went to the home today and asked the nurse, and she said, no, they thought Mum's downturn was generalised and not caused by the broken mattress. Now, I know at this time Mum had pressure sores develop on both ankles, and they were not in contact with the mattress, I don't think, so maybe this is true.
Am I right to be criticising myself for not buying a new mattress at the time? I did have a conversation with the woman who sold me the bed, and she said if Mum was on an airflow mattress, I could leave her on it, and she would be fine.
Oh well, maybe it's one of those things I will never have an answer to. But it's depressing, thinking what if, what if I could have spared Mum the pain.
I fed Mum a jam and cream doughnut, and fed her her tea, and gave her her tablets. We talked to her two friends E and J in two separate calls on my mobile, and Mum was very pleased, and smiled and smiled.
By the time I left she was annoyed she'd missed Loose Women, but I said never mind Mum, it'll be on tomorrow.
Love to all,
I went to see Mum today after having a week off, to try and recharge my own batteries which are depleted. In a way it makes things harder, as Mum had forgotten me completely, and just went round in a circle of "Who are you? Are you the same age as me? Where have I been? I'd forgotten all about you. I thought I was all on my own. I thought I'd never see anyone again. How come you can do things and I can't? How come you know what's going on?" round and round and round in a big circle.
Something has been playing on my mind. I bought Mum a new electric profiling bed at the end of November. At the time I looked at airflow mattresses and thought should I buy a new one, but I didn't. Now I wonder, if I had, might Mum have avoided these awful pressure sores? The reason for me thinking this is, when I went to see her after a week's holiday in January of this year, she was on a new Cairwave mattress, and you might recall me saying the tissue nurse commented on it, and the home's nurse said, "Well, her last mattress broke." Now I am wondering, did the old mattress breaking cause the pressure sore?
In fact it has been playing on my mind so much that I went to the home today and asked the nurse, and she said, no, they thought Mum's downturn was generalised and not caused by the broken mattress. Now, I know at this time Mum had pressure sores develop on both ankles, and they were not in contact with the mattress, I don't think, so maybe this is true.
Am I right to be criticising myself for not buying a new mattress at the time? I did have a conversation with the woman who sold me the bed, and she said if Mum was on an airflow mattress, I could leave her on it, and she would be fine.
Oh well, maybe it's one of those things I will never have an answer to. But it's depressing, thinking what if, what if I could have spared Mum the pain.
I fed Mum a jam and cream doughnut, and fed her her tea, and gave her her tablets. We talked to her two friends E and J in two separate calls on my mobile, and Mum was very pleased, and smiled and smiled.
By the time I left she was annoyed she'd missed Loose Women, but I said never mind Mum, it'll be on tomorrow.
Love to all,