Yesterday Dad was adamant his memory wasn't bad and he told the psychiatrist he was getting on with things ok (yeah, sure, that's why when I go round each day he's got a mountain of correspondance he doesn't know what to do with) and then when I went round later, there was the incident of the wedding ring.
He mentioned his signet ring and said he rather liked it and wondered how long he'd had it. I said it was his wedding ring. He sounded very puzzled. I told him something about the origin of the ring and how he and Mum had got their rings together and he vaguely remembered. They were married over half a century. I don't mind if he remembers boring stuff or sad stuff or trivial stuff, but I do mind him forgetting about his wedding ring.
He tells me he can't remember much about Mum at the end and I say that's ok, that's not dementia, it's his mind protecting him from his memories of Mum being about her dying and that all that matters is that he remembers the beautiful woman he fell in love with (he has a picture next to his bed from when they were courting) and that he remembers she loved him enough to stay with him for over half a century.
But to forget his wedding ring? I'm crying. It's not that a ring matters, it's the love that matters. I want him to remember how much he was loved by Mum. I'm terrified he will forget her. If I thought he'd remember instead a wayward youth full of lovely girlfriends, that would be different, but so far as I know, he had no girlfriend of any significance but Mum.
He mentioned his signet ring and said he rather liked it and wondered how long he'd had it. I said it was his wedding ring. He sounded very puzzled. I told him something about the origin of the ring and how he and Mum had got their rings together and he vaguely remembered. They were married over half a century. I don't mind if he remembers boring stuff or sad stuff or trivial stuff, but I do mind him forgetting about his wedding ring.
He tells me he can't remember much about Mum at the end and I say that's ok, that's not dementia, it's his mind protecting him from his memories of Mum being about her dying and that all that matters is that he remembers the beautiful woman he fell in love with (he has a picture next to his bed from when they were courting) and that he remembers she loved him enough to stay with him for over half a century.
But to forget his wedding ring? I'm crying. It's not that a ring matters, it's the love that matters. I want him to remember how much he was loved by Mum. I'm terrified he will forget her. If I thought he'd remember instead a wayward youth full of lovely girlfriends, that would be different, but so far as I know, he had no girlfriend of any significance but Mum.