Dear Saffie
Today the zoo visit was in the wing opposite Henry's, same floor, for elderly frail. Except for two men who chatted to the girl, the others seemed similar to Henry's wing residents - to have dementia. This surprised me as I have been through one of the other two elderly frail wings downstairs and most of them are elderly but no noticable signs of dementia, sitting chatting away to each other. But the wing we were in today, none of them seemed very happy, and some very ill natured!
Yes perhaps Dave does have moments when he is aware of exactly what is happening to him, hence his tears and fears? Henry has not had that sort of awareness since he went into hospital, that he was in hospital, had surgery, the illnesses etc. But he knows he is somewhere he should not be, and as you know, the constant need to come home.
I think it wise of you to have a Tuesday (at least) off from visiting, and it is a lot to be looking after the grandchildren, going to your volunteer afternoon and then also visiting Dave. Also sounds a good idea to gradually becoming more involved with the WI activities, get to know other people, even if you start by going only occasionally to something.
It is early days into this new life of a husband in a care home, I wonder if I will ever adapt, and although I promised myself things I would do some days, when I don't visit I am busy doing other things plus too exhausted. But just as I was determined to visit the Art Exhibition this year, there are another two things I would like to do before the days shorten and I wont drive home in the dark. Not holding my breath though. Not sure I am ready to do such things, this half life still very much revolves around Henry.
I empahise with the friend who has evaporated. I have had a similar experience, a long standing friend for whom I was there during difficult months in her life, and who has always said she would be there for me. Not that I was looking to be 'repaid' but we were good friends who shared a lot, and then abandonment.....
I also have a next door neighbour who has never mentioned Henry since I told her back in February that he would not be coming home.
We do sound to feel the same about the homes, although the location of Henry's is not ideal, on a main road, and the garden is sadly neglected. Some of the armchairs need replaced, this wing isn't as 'up market' in decor and furnishings as some of the others but I suppose in a dementia wing accidents do happen, armchairs suffer, and carpets.....
I am very tired tonight, and not feeling too great today. Everything aching and a dodgy bowel, I do have two chronic bowel problems. Hope better tomorrow, I shall be visting Henry again and then several things to do afterwards.
I actually walked out on Henry today. Quietly. All was well during the zoo visit, but later...... I shall write on my thread tomorrow.
Hoping you find Dave better than your last visit, shall be thinking about you.
With my love
Loo xxx
No one in Henry's wing appears happy, just the carers who are cheery. Although one woman is more 'with it', smiles and says hello and often remarks on what I am wearing. The only sign of dementia I have seen so far over three months is that she often asks if her father is alright, and he must be long dead.I have to agree that Dave is just the same. When he started to sing Unchained Melody cheerfully yesterday, Irealised that I have not seen any one of the residents even vaguly happy on that wing. True, most are very infirm and perhaps some of those in bed are happier but most around seem to moan. Only the carers are cheerful - which i suppose is something. I think some of those in other wings are better or seemed to be when we went to the singing anyway
Today the zoo visit was in the wing opposite Henry's, same floor, for elderly frail. Except for two men who chatted to the girl, the others seemed similar to Henry's wing residents - to have dementia. This surprised me as I have been through one of the other two elderly frail wings downstairs and most of them are elderly but no noticable signs of dementia, sitting chatting away to each other. But the wing we were in today, none of them seemed very happy, and some very ill natured!
Yes perhaps Dave does have moments when he is aware of exactly what is happening to him, hence his tears and fears? Henry has not had that sort of awareness since he went into hospital, that he was in hospital, had surgery, the illnesses etc. But he knows he is somewhere he should not be, and as you know, the constant need to come home.
I think it wise of you to have a Tuesday (at least) off from visiting, and it is a lot to be looking after the grandchildren, going to your volunteer afternoon and then also visiting Dave. Also sounds a good idea to gradually becoming more involved with the WI activities, get to know other people, even if you start by going only occasionally to something.
It is early days into this new life of a husband in a care home, I wonder if I will ever adapt, and although I promised myself things I would do some days, when I don't visit I am busy doing other things plus too exhausted. But just as I was determined to visit the Art Exhibition this year, there are another two things I would like to do before the days shorten and I wont drive home in the dark. Not holding my breath though. Not sure I am ready to do such things, this half life still very much revolves around Henry.
I empahise with the friend who has evaporated. I have had a similar experience, a long standing friend for whom I was there during difficult months in her life, and who has always said she would be there for me. Not that I was looking to be 'repaid' but we were good friends who shared a lot, and then abandonment.....
I also have a next door neighbour who has never mentioned Henry since I told her back in February that he would not be coming home.
We do sound to feel the same about the homes, although the location of Henry's is not ideal, on a main road, and the garden is sadly neglected. Some of the armchairs need replaced, this wing isn't as 'up market' in decor and furnishings as some of the others but I suppose in a dementia wing accidents do happen, armchairs suffer, and carpets.....
I am very tired tonight, and not feeling too great today. Everything aching and a dodgy bowel, I do have two chronic bowel problems. Hope better tomorrow, I shall be visting Henry again and then several things to do afterwards.
I actually walked out on Henry today. Quietly. All was well during the zoo visit, but later...... I shall write on my thread tomorrow.
Hoping you find Dave better than your last visit, shall be thinking about you.
With my love
Loo xxx
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