I have been reading TP for 10 years while my husband has been slowly deterioarating with frontal lobe dementia. I have plenty of daytime respite and he has rolling respite at every six weeks to give me a break. I've had a short holiday a few months ago and I'm due to go away for 2 weeks at the beginning of September. My husband has a lovely gentle personality and is very easy to manage generally, Since the last 2 respites, I feel I am resenting him being here and he may be picking up on this. He is loosing understanding of the spoken word and constantly repeats what I say and will fuss and question endlessly over a minor issue. I don't want to moan at my friends as he is very good with them.I blow up at silly issues and much to my shame, I belittle him which I'm not proud of. I have been on anti depressants before but don't see them as an answer to this . I want to get on with my life and yet know that I can't so please help me to regain my equilibrium as my husband doesn't deserve this.