She left me last Friday evening at 11pm.I was with her to the very end. I sang to her, talked to her and cuddled and loved her.She slipped away quietly and without pain.She fought so hard and so long and now she is at peace, released from her torture.
She was calling me on Thursday evening. I felt it and had a rush of urgency to get to her. So on the plane I got, as always.And she waited for me. After all of the years I have been flying backwards and forwards, I would have felt very robbed if I hadn t have been able to accompany her to the end.I have mixed feelings right now. Relieved that she is no more demented but why did my darling Mam have to suffer so long and so relentlessly.I know there is no answer to this.It is how it is.
And so we move on from day to day. Dad is sometimes in a dreadful state. He has lost his life long partner who he cared for admirably.
Tomorrow we are going to Mam for the last time......I am happy about it and don t feel one bit uncomfortable. I accompanied her to the end and will do so until the funeral on Monday.We are going to a beautiful crematorium called Wear Valley in Coundon and our dear family and friends are meeting at the Redworth Hall Hotel. It is all very fitting for Mam,she was a kind,dear person and many said...a lady. My daughter is reading the eulogy.I hope she copes with it.She will as she is doing it for her Grandma.
My Mother was treated with dignity and respect by the carers and nurses and they also supported my Father and I.
And so that s it isn t it? She has come to the end of her journey.Nearly 60 years ago I was her birthday present.We share the same birthday,21st June and this next one I will be on my own. Mamless....it s so sad.
Well dear friends, you have helped me too and I thank you all.
Be strong...Hinny
She was calling me on Thursday evening. I felt it and had a rush of urgency to get to her. So on the plane I got, as always.And she waited for me. After all of the years I have been flying backwards and forwards, I would have felt very robbed if I hadn t have been able to accompany her to the end.I have mixed feelings right now. Relieved that she is no more demented but why did my darling Mam have to suffer so long and so relentlessly.I know there is no answer to this.It is how it is.
And so we move on from day to day. Dad is sometimes in a dreadful state. He has lost his life long partner who he cared for admirably.
Tomorrow we are going to Mam for the last time......I am happy about it and don t feel one bit uncomfortable. I accompanied her to the end and will do so until the funeral on Monday.We are going to a beautiful crematorium called Wear Valley in Coundon and our dear family and friends are meeting at the Redworth Hall Hotel. It is all very fitting for Mam,she was a kind,dear person and many said...a lady. My daughter is reading the eulogy.I hope she copes with it.She will as she is doing it for her Grandma.
My Mother was treated with dignity and respect by the carers and nurses and they also supported my Father and I.
And so that s it isn t it? She has come to the end of her journey.Nearly 60 years ago I was her birthday present.We share the same birthday,21st June and this next one I will be on my own. Mamless....it s so sad.
Well dear friends, you have helped me too and I thank you all.
Be strong...Hinny
