I dont want to feel like this, I feel bitter, I'm tired, Mom has VD Ive looked after her for three years, but after a bad fall and a spell in hospital I realise that she cannot be on her own, I have moved out of my home leaving my partner and my two lovely dogs,I'm sleeping on a single bed in a tiny room. mom gets scared on her own so I spend all day with her not leaving her alone, my partner comes for a couple of hours then leaves to be with my dogs. its been hard today, mom has been talking gibberish most of the day, she can walk ok but won't, I end up almost picking her up,my back hurts. she is doubly incontinent so I'm sinking in a sea of washing, Its time for her to go to bed, she wont get up, I lift her up pulling my back again, we struggle to bed, I get her in, she then says she is weeing, the pads don't hold it, so I am now struggling to get her up and change the bed again, I'm snappy, she says sorry, I feel bad, I took her up in bed, she looks so tiny and vunerable, I hate myself, I sit in tears, another night gone, start again tomorrow !!!!!!!!!!!!!Its just another day in the life of living with Dementia