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Another
Year
Older
Well, that`s another year over as my 52nd birthday passes me by, and what a year it’s been. Without a doubt the saddest thing to happen in the last year is the passing of my wonderful MUM in June of this year, it still hurts as much now as it did then and yesterday was the first time in 53 years that she didn’t say happy birthday to me.
I still miss her so much
On the flip side one of the happiest things to happen was the publication of my first THREE books and all in such quick succession! But unfortunately the Alzheimer’s disease rolls on like an unstoppable Juggernaught.
As you know my first lot of Alzheimer’s drugs was unsuitable for me so now I am on Exiba which is only because I have a fantastic consultant who ignores “NICE” but did explain it as a “last chance Saloon “ drug so here`s hoping. I have got steadily worse over the last year and noticed I get more irritable that ever I used to. How Elaine puts up with me God only knows! But this last year looking at AD through my eyes has been hard to accept and very frightening. I suppose if I ever sat down and thought of nothing else for a while it would petrify the living daylights out of me.
I realise every day that I am so lucky at the moment that I can write this down or verbalise my feelings to Elaine, my family and you when so many who have this disease cannot. There may come a day when I can’t but until then I will try to do so. Some may say I wear my heart on my sleeve and maybe I do but that’s something I don’t apologise for as it helps me greatly to say what I feel and explain the reactions of other people regarding this horrid disease.
For people who can`t get across what they feel and think must be horrifying and so frustrating. I am a firm believer that their story is in their eyes and if people look long enough they will still see the “old “them in there somewhere. This is what I have told my “Angel Elaine” to do if there ever comes a time for me.
At this point, before I bore you all to death!! LOL I would just like to say thank you for all your kind comments and support over the last year. I am truly sure that without my wonderful family at home and online I wouldn’t be here now, and as I always say “never give up Hoping”
Best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Another
Year
Older
Well, that`s another year over as my 52nd birthday passes me by, and what a year it’s been. Without a doubt the saddest thing to happen in the last year is the passing of my wonderful MUM in June of this year, it still hurts as much now as it did then and yesterday was the first time in 53 years that she didn’t say happy birthday to me.
I still miss her so much
On the flip side one of the happiest things to happen was the publication of my first THREE books and all in such quick succession! But unfortunately the Alzheimer’s disease rolls on like an unstoppable Juggernaught.
As you know my first lot of Alzheimer’s drugs was unsuitable for me so now I am on Exiba which is only because I have a fantastic consultant who ignores “NICE” but did explain it as a “last chance Saloon “ drug so here`s hoping. I have got steadily worse over the last year and noticed I get more irritable that ever I used to. How Elaine puts up with me God only knows! But this last year looking at AD through my eyes has been hard to accept and very frightening. I suppose if I ever sat down and thought of nothing else for a while it would petrify the living daylights out of me.
I realise every day that I am so lucky at the moment that I can write this down or verbalise my feelings to Elaine, my family and you when so many who have this disease cannot. There may come a day when I can’t but until then I will try to do so. Some may say I wear my heart on my sleeve and maybe I do but that’s something I don’t apologise for as it helps me greatly to say what I feel and explain the reactions of other people regarding this horrid disease.
For people who can`t get across what they feel and think must be horrifying and so frustrating. I am a firm believer that their story is in their eyes and if people look long enough they will still see the “old “them in there somewhere. This is what I have told my “Angel Elaine” to do if there ever comes a time for me.
At this point, before I bore you all to death!! LOL I would just like to say thank you for all your kind comments and support over the last year. I am truly sure that without my wonderful family at home and online I wouldn’t be here now, and as I always say “never give up Hoping”
Best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx