Please..if there is a god out there..

[Helen33]

I can see you are offline Gigi and I hope that means you are getting a bit of rest. Thank goodness you can begin to see light and a more immediate possibility of proper rest and recovery.

Will you still have the advocacy meeting on Monday? - I hope so.

Sending lots of love x

 

[Canadian Joanne]

Gigi, that is wonderful news. Thank God that the struggle was recognized and that she insisted you call. You really need this break.

 

[Grannie G]

Thank goodness.

 

[jenniferpa]

About (expletive deleted) time Gigi. I am so relieved for you.

 

[gigi]

Thankyou one and all, for your kind and supportive comments. These last couple of weeks have been something of a nightmare ...but you've all kept me going.

Eric was due for respite on 22nd March and in some stupid way I suppose I thought I should just keep going until then...

Perhaps I didn't want to admit that this was becoming impossible...and because of that I have allowed myself to get to a point of breakdown.

Perhaps I should have held my hands up earlier and instead of saying "I'm struggling" should have said..like I did thismorning.."I can't do this any more"

Perhaps that's what the SW was waiting to hear.

I count my blessings that she was at the other end of the phone when I called. She was instantly concerned and had the whole thing sorted within 10 minutes of our conversation.

I think I've misjudged her...

She asked if I wanted to take Eric in myself on Sunday or if the taxi should pick him up. You know I just couldn't think or decide..I burst into tears again and told her I didn't know what to anymore, I was too tired to think..and asked her to make the decision. So she did.

Eric will go on Sunday in the taxi...I just have to pack for him.
The SW even asked if I would be ok to do that....

xx

 

[DeborahBlythe]

Excellent news Gigi, well done.
x

 

[connie]

Dear Gigi, just read your news.

So glad that you are getting the support you need at this time.

Such a shame that you have to get to the point of exhaustion before anyone steps in.

Love n'hugs to you both

 

[Helen33]

Blimey Gigi, reading your latest post reminds me of the state I was in just before Christmas Only two more sleeps

Lots of love x

 

[ROSEANN]

Dearest Gigi
I am so glad you are going to get some rest at last.

My SW did what yours did and arranged respite for me for what I thought was one week but it was for two she thought I was that bad.
I hope you have a good rest and will be thinking of you.
Will be in touch.
Love Roseann xx

 

[Nan2seven]

Dear Gigi - I am so relieved to read your latest post. So glad that someone has finally done something for you so promptly. What a huge relief for you.
Sending love, Nan XXX

 

[living in hope]

Hi Gigi,
I am glad you are going to get some respite, but we should not have to get to breaking point before someone does something!
love
Lorraine

 

[gigi]

Will you still have the advocacy meeting on Monday?

Yesterday morning I phoned the advocate to tell her what was happening. She thought it was still a good idea for her to come out on Monday afternoon..so yes, Helen, the meeting will go ahead.

Due praise must go to our local pharmacist. I suddenly realised that Eric didn't have enough medication to see him through respite. I'd ordered it but it wouldn't be ready until Monday. When I explained things to the pharmacist he understood and delivered them to us yesterday..

I cancelled the carer last night as Eric had to be washed and changed early evening..so I put him into his pyjamas. We sat together watching Reach for the Sky...when I saw his eyes drooping I fast forwarded it to the end and told him it was finished..he went off to bed without any problem..

But was up again just after 4..

It's given me time to get most of the packing done.

About 11 thismorning I sat down with a coffee and the crossword...and fell asleep.

I've never known such absolute weariness. It's quite scary to feel like this.

Love xx

 

[Mo_N]

Hi Gigi,
I've not been around for couple of days so I am so relieved to see you are finally getting the help you need. It's just a pity it has taken you to breaking point before they acted.

Will be thinking of you in the morning & hoping Eric goes off happily in his taxi.
Hope you have nothing but rest & relaxation planned for the rest of tomorrow.
Continuing with the Advocacy meeting is very sound, having Eric in respite is a help but not a solution so you need their input still.

Be kind to yourself from now on - you deserve it.

Love
Mo
x

 

[Nan2seven]

Oh dear, Gigi, you are absolutely at exhaustion point. Only a few more hours to go ... It may be just this very piece of knowledge that has knocked you out this morning, the relief that you have almost reached the finishing line, so to speak. I do hope the rest of your day passes as peacefully as possible - loved the idea of your fast-forwarding the film when Eric was drowsing in front of it. What a shame the next 24 hours can't be similarly fast-forwarded and you can finally get your so badly needed respite.

Love, Nan XXX

 

[gigi]

What a shame the next 24 hours can't be similarly fast-forwarded and you can finally get your so badly needed respite.

That's a brilliant idea, Nan...

There are one or two hurdles still to overcome..this evening and tonight.

And the taxi tomorrow...

It's not so far away now...and Eric is watching the rugby so am hoping that will keep his attention for a while.

Except that the heating is on at full blast because he feels so cold...and apparently "Rugby is a cold game"...

Mo...a leisurely bath and a day without questions or demands is all I ask for...thankyou for your concern.

Love xx

 

[ROSEANN]

Gigi
Hope you get your leisurely bath, had mine today `J` went into his respite today and I only realised how much he goes on and on this evening when both me and the dog fell asleep for two hours.
Don`t even get that much some nights.

Hope all goes well tomorrow, enjoy
Love Roseann x

 

[donkey]

im very excited for you gigi and you must be counting the minutes now. i bet your planning loadsof things you havnt been able to do, but do have a rest good luck tomorrow xxx

 

[larivy]

sorry to hear you have had such a hard time Gigi glad you have respite though hope it all goes well tomorrow have a great break love larivy

 

[Helen33]

Dear Gigi,

Thinking of you and hoping that all goes well tomorrow. I realise some things are going to be emotionally charged but this has to happen so that you can recover yourself.

Love x

 

[Scottie45]

Dear Gigi

Will be thinking of Eric and you tomorrow,hope you have a restful respite,take care Marian xx