thanks for all your kind words..it really does help me
Winnie, I have no regrets with my decision, my brother went to see mum yesterday, and he said the same thing to me....but I said goodbye to my mum a long time ago....I dont need to do it again. when my dad died, my grief was all consuming. I couldnt eat, I couldnt sleep, but somehow I held down my job...it took me over 2 years to not wake up crying in the night.
Then my FIL died from lung cancer, then our friend hung himself in his garage at 53 years old and then I got tough and learned to look after me for my childrens sake...I cant expose myself to anything that will weaken me,my dear mum will die without me by her side. am OK with this.
Love from Jo......this phone is going to ring soon.....